Connect Four

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
Dr. Suess

The kind of sleeping problems I wish I had.

My Legs and Arms Have Broken Down

I hate bad moods. I need something to cheer me up. I need someone to cheer me up. I'm sick of being moody. I'm sick of being a bitch.

Formal's in four days. I'm fat and I don't have a date -- success.

I dream...

I dream of a
Valentine.

Happy February everyone! This will be an eventful month; I already know.

My Moods - Eh.

I'm in a funk again. Haven't been in one for a while. It's actually quite surprising, though. I just joined a sorority. Kappa Delta Love <3
It makes me beyond happy. I must say that if anything, that's what's keeping me sane.
I signed my apartment reservation yesterday. Living with Jillian. Party pad, biatch! I'm super excited.
My parents have been so understanding with everything lately. It hurts to lie about some stuff...but I'm nineteen, eh. Whatevs mayne!
Anyways, I'm all over the place tonight. This officially earns the award for worst blog post ever!

Gives You Hell

1. I'm slowly starting to love college more and more with every day that passes. I couldn't be happier with the friends I have, and the memories that I'm making.
2. I feel like I spend way too much money considering I don't have a job. I feel like I'm more conscious about it than any of my other friends, but I don't do anything about it.
3. I'm slowly becoming a lot more organized with the way my life is going, and how I'm going about it. It makes me super happy and I can't wait to see what happens in the near future.
4. I care about everyone. Whether we're friends or enemies. I may come of as a super bitch at times, but deep down I'm definitely worrying.
5. It's not hard to annoy me. Now that I'm aware of my "bitch face" I've become more and more conscious about when I'm making it. I'm slowly starting to stop over analyzing stuff.
6. I've become really good at not judging. I used to be quick at that, but in recent events I've contained myself from being too biased or judgmental.
7. You're not better than me, I'm not better than you. Everyone is unique in their own way so stop acting like you've got some kind of hierarchical hold over me. (That's not necessarily based towards anyone in particular.)
8. I do love my Kappa Delta sisters so much! I can't wait to see where that will take me in the future. All I know is that some good is definitely going to come out of it.
9. The peace corps will help me grow into the person I've always aspired to be. I could care less about whether or not you think I can do it...I'm going to prove (more to myself than anyone else) that I really can do something I set my mind to, and I'm definitely passionate about this little number.
10. The way I see it: You only live life ONCE, don't half-ass it. I'm going to do what I want with life and definitely won't worry about how my finances will hurt/help me. I can't wait to open my own bakery.
11. I'm slowly starting to regret starting this note at 1:00 am when I have an 8:00 am accounting class tomorrow.
12. My BEST FRIEND keeps me functioning. We're so different, yet so alike it's insane.
13. I feel like I could do so much with my life...I don't understand why it's so hard for me to come up with a legitimate occupation. I don't think it's fair.
14. I miss elementary school and ice cream bins during lunch. Now I'm stuck with Saga, oh yum!
15. Don't rub your jeans in front of me, I will work as hard as I can to break your arms off.
16. I consider it a little miracle when it rains and it's sunny outside. I just can't help but have a phenomenal day. I could care less about my hair frizzing up, or my make up getting ruined.
17. I fully intend on moving somewhere else when I've got my life together. Georgia weather does nothing but fully upset me.
18. I hate waking up with the "I cannot believe I did that last night" mentality. Or with the "what the hell DID I do last night" mentality.
19. When I first started college last year I missed my cat more than anyone else. It definitely made me start feeling guilty but now I just feel guilty because I feel like I don't miss him enough.
20. I'm a bit of a grammar/spelling Nazi. I've gotten sufficiently better with correcting people on the spot, however it drives me up the wall! Hey, it's better than being a German Nazi.
21. I couldn't be more excited for this year. I don't think I've ever started a school year with such an amazing mentality. However, I'm quite a bit worried about my grades. I'm so close to losing HOPE that I could taste it...
22. I'm over the Jonas Brothers.
23. Every girl needs a guy that treats her perfectly. Unfortunately I've got no one...but I'm hoping for it. I've already kind of got my wedding planned out...ha.
24. I use too many commas.
25. I hate when people ask my astrological sign. The fact that I'm a freaking disease makes me a bit uncomfortable.

Tried honestly...

Stop This Train - John Mayer

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"

"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
And don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"


Again, I have absolutely no shame in relating my life to things other extraordinary people write about.

Elle Oh Vee Ee.

I'm so anxious for love.
So ready for it
that I can just grasp it.
I've gotten to the point
where I don't even care who it's with,
I just want to feel it.
I just want to feel Love.

"I wish it could just be simple,
like a retro-pop song.
"I want you to want me!"
BOOM! End of story.
We all live happily ever after.

But it's never really like that, is it?"